19 August
More or less, I am dead/, I am not in position to do any focused work. May be I am broken and all I can do is to sit and watch the activities within me. I have come to realize that, My love for everything is my biggest obstacle to move forward in my personal/professional life.
and to get out of this condition, i am trying to establish “Baby Doll” within me as MY ONLY LOVE.
I watched Movie: BEN HUR – From This Movie I would like to keep two characters “JUDAH” and “MESSALA” and to very limited/possible extent. I transform myself.
BABY as JUDAH
Baby Doll as MESSALA.
20 August
I cleaned up, went out to get some household items.
I had put a board of “mytruemaster.com” outside the housing society, I live in. I saw the advertisement Board was missing. I became angry at once, enquired few people about the missing board and checked the CCTV camera of a resturaunt to find the people behind missing board. I could not find the people responsible.
I came home, very angry .
Cooked and ate and sitting and enjoying in my home.
21 August:
I am trying to stay in my professional role But the mental activities around me is a challenge.I am trying to hold on to MY BODY and MY BRAIN but I end up handling the unconsciousness of other Body/Brain.
Listening to Songs Of “BAAR BAAR DEKHO”
